KARLA SUE ROBINSON
My very first memory in life was sitting at the end of our home in our home at 1:3645 Homer Street la puente California 91746. Sitting on the floor and a light blue and white polka dotted dress. My sister Naomi was wearing the pretty red one. She reminded me of strawberry shortcake. I wanted that dress. Freedom must have just gotten a stresses cuz she was so excited about putting them on us. I'm guessing Stanley had went to work cuz I remember feeling relieved as I looked down the hall to not see his face. I clearly was still very young and trying to put my thoughts together but that is literally the first thought in life that I had and remembered.
Naomi who was my half sister we shared the same father but different mothers according to my parents. However the story of Naomi is she never really liked me despise me as a matter of fact. I was informed that she would always try to light the top on fire an attempt to get rid of me. Since you couldn't quite master that feat I was informed that she would like matches blow them out and stick them on my skin, until I was scream bloody murder. This very well could be for my fear of fire comes from. I'm not real sure if Naomi knew the details of all of this, but I'm guessing that at 2 years older than me she probably recollects bits and pieces of it. Everyone born to Stanley born of blonde hair. Except for Joey who was born to Rita who also had brunette hair like mine. I do remember being the only one in the family ever having their eyes complimented on a constant.
I remember even one time while at home Depot and cashier had told me wow you have the most beautiful eyes and this was probably the 9 millionth time I heard it by the age of five. I looked at her I rolled my eyes and I said "I know, everyone tells me that!". I do believe it was also around 5 that the lil Stern started coming out in me. Mom would always set me in the front of the cart. This one particular lady had been taking her sweet ass time moving out of the way,. So I responded "honk honk, beep beep, get your fat ass out of the way.". I'm free to laugh while smacking me lately across my face in an attempt to make the lady think she was "reprimanding" me. I got angry after the slap and I looked at Rita and I said what it's not my fault she's fat, right along with her fat ass cart that was filled with food. I didn't know any better at the time I just knew from a very young age I'd have patience for people standing in my way.
Stanley really did attempt to make a bond with me cuz I got older he would take me to his job sites he was a handyman. I really didn't have too much to say while I was with him, I simply saw this as an opportunity to maybe kiss his ass stuck up to him so I would get special privileges and be treated differently than the rest. However he was Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde while away from the house, he was as cool as a mouse. However in that house he was an awful spouse!
Dinner was to be ready when he got home the kids pretty much fed and gone to bed it was time for him to watch mash and then go and smash my mom. Almost an argument every night! I remember I would sit and pray that reader was just pack us up and go away. She often would say when you guys are all grown. I won't have anyone and I will only have him. #standbyyourman I really do wish I knew what exactly kept her loyal to him?!
Occasionally in the fights would get so heated that Rita would leave and not return you want to talk about a desperate man, begging and pleading her to come back swearing to change but never did. It seems that it wasn't until I was all grown and out of the house and then he finally gave up and let her walk even told people they were separated and she lived in indianola Iowa and he lived in Osceola Iowa. It disappeared he didn't have to care anymore like he was in the clear of whatever his wrongdoing was.
#I'MDYINGFORANSWERS
I WONDER IF MY DADDY STERN GOT TO SEE ME? DID HE GET TO HOLD ME DID YOU GET TO HEAR MY HEARTBEAT? DID HE CRY WHEN HE TOOK ME? WHO IS MY MOM? WAS SHE THE BOMB? WHY WAS IT THAT WHEN I WAS LITTLE I ALWAYS WANTED TO PLAY PRETEND PHONE AND ACT LIKE I WAS HISPANIC,. ATTEMPTING TO TALK SPANISH? LOL. SO MANY QUESTIONS I WANT TO LEARN ABOUT THE PAST I WANT TO KNOW EVERYTHING! WHY DID THEY NAME ME KARLA, THAT NAME IS STILL NOT FITTING OF ME! LOL. BRITA SAID SHE WANTED TO NAME ME KRYSTAL, WHY THEY DIDN'T GO WITH THAT IS BEYOND ME.
IF I CAN JUST HAVE ONE REQUEST, PLEASE DON'T TAKE ME OUT TILL I FIND ALL OF THIS OUT.
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